Softening Of An Old Pattern

A short reflection on noticing, understanding, and slowly shifting an old inner response

Some days, I’m surprised by how quickly my mood can shift.

All it takes is a look, 
a tone,
a lack of response.
Or even just my imagination of someone’s reaction.

And suddenly, 
I’m questioning myself.
Trying to prove, justify, perform.

It’s an old pattern—
one that used to stay with me for days.
Back then, I didn’t even know what was happening. 
I just felt… off.

Unworthy. 

Not enough. 

Like I had to work harder to be okay.

But now, I can often see it.
And when I do still fall into it, 
I don’t stay there as long.

That feels like something to be proud of.
Not because I’ve “fixed” anything—
But because I’m meeting those moments with more awareness and care. 

And that changes everything.

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